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[Sep. 17th, 2006|10:47 am] |
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| |  blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | joni mitchell - all i want | ] |
..so yeah, life is eh. nothing really has happened since my last entry besides the fact that i got a tattoo and that school started and sucks and i hate my job. went to see black dahlia, pretty weird, really graphic, scarlett johanson is efing gorgeous. probably going to see panic at the disco in nov and possibly say anything as well, as long as neither are sold out. oh one thing i did do was caddy, it was fun pretty easy money, but youre on your feet all day. but yeah, lots of money. next ones in like vermont or something. so, yeah, thats about it.. |
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[Aug. 23rd, 2006|06:56 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | tekoa | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  full | ] |
| [ | music |
| | fax machine and the creepy voices that come out of it | ] |
..i applied at starbucks. i hope i get the job. i put chels and blake down as references, so they most likely put in a good word. speaking of blake, went to his house the other night. we watched weeds, funny show. i need money so i can get an apartment and not have to live at home. blah. i had a bad dream the other night that i went in for my tattoo and i fell asleep and when i woke up i had this monstrous ugly tattoo all across my stomach. i was so pissed and afraid at the same time and it felt so real that when i woke up i checked my stomach to make sure that it didnt really happen. now i'm at tekoa doing some office work for jenn and the stupid fax machine keeps breaking and making wicked annoying noises. so yeah, thats about it. taste is this weekend, perhaps go to that if i have time. oh and i've been playing kingdom hearts 2 nonstop for the past like week and it's due back to blockbuster. i'm almost finished with it. now thats it, k bye!.. |
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[Aug. 18th, 2006|07:03 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  and hungry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | moon river - audrey hepburn | ] |
..last night i got pulled over for the first time. i was heading back from westspringfield on that straightaway area and i was only going like 50 which isnt that bad but it was at 1230. but the cop was cool and let me go with a warning, i think mainly cuz i have never been pulled over before, and im a girl, and he assumed i was trying to make it home for a curfew and its rude to correct a police officer so i let him assume away, haha. thats about it, im starving right now and my mom ate my grinder that i wanted sooo bad, even though its 7 in the morning, so i think i may go up to subway cuz i am mad hungry. cant wait to get my tattoo also, sept 5. i have probably already mentioned that, but im just so excited.. |
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| shitty |
[Aug. 14th, 2006|10:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  moody | ] |
| [ | music |
| | fall out boy | ] |
..i'm sick of people's bullshit, lies and deception. i can never tell who to trust with the truth. everyone tells me something diffferent to cover their own asses. its retarded. as are my "friends" at the moment. i only know of a few that i can trust. but i cant tell even them everything in my life because of certain factors. i can never tell people everything i think becaus e i dont want to upset or offend them, and i want them to continue liking me. but soetimes i just feel like snapping and going off on them..
..in other news, i got my wisdom teeth out a week ago tomorrow. i have to go back tomorrow so they can check on me. i start a new job in september, not including caddying for bridge tounaments. i start college september 5, and later on that day i am getting my first tattoo. and yeah i'm hating life right now.. |
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[Jul. 30th, 2006|12:39 am] |
..as i suspected, my 18th wasnt any better than my 16th. it's 12:39 am, i am officially 18 and legal. though i dont feel any different. tomorrow consists of: 1. nikki's grad partay 2. noho for sushi with kel and the rents 3. possibly if i have the money, buying my first scratch ticket. and now that im 18 i have a list of things to do: 1. buy a scratch ticket, as stated above 2. get a tattoo 3. go to a club, probably thursday with kel and others 4. buy porn, just because i can now : ) 5. drive past midnight any time i want 6. open a checking account and get a debit and credit card 7. i cant think of the rest right now, but i know there's more..
..but yeah, bday party consisted of lots of driving down to CT to the pirate party that lots of people couldnt even make it to, though dana did join me. beer was gross, so i had like half and dumped the rest out. smoked in a big van with a bunch of guys. talked with friends. no dance party though, which was very dissappointing, so i may just have to make a trip down to the GFB house for another one sometime soon..
..tis all for now, so until later, i bid you adu, even if thats not how you spell it.. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 17th, 2006|08:59 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | rems room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | bring me to life - evanescence | ] |
..so this weekend was pretty confusing. worked friday and saturday morning. was trying to find people to work a bunch of shifts so i could actually be able to do something for my birthday come to find out ashli cant so we cant really have much of a conjoined birthday bash without her, so we might end up having just 2 seperate parties which i guess is cool. but no because my parties never work out, but i thought that if it was with someone else it might work out. apparently i have bad birthday karma. and it will probably suck again, my 16th was a disaster, i can only imagine what my 18th will be like..
..so yeah, threw up this weekend for the first time in years and the first time from drinking. it was at the gfb house and it was an awesome party, played some beer pong and found out that i play better drunk than i do sober, danced a little, til the cops came yet again. but what i did wrong was start out by drinking whiskey sours. not good, then moved to beer, then to wine, then started smoking pot. really shitty situation. thats when the purging occured. and what makes that situation worse is i was in a tree house. so there i am throwing up out of a tree, not even able to stand. getting carried around the entire party, back and forth between outside and the couch inside, of course i dont remember this, but am told about it by the friends that were taking care of me the entire night. as far as i knew, my night ended at like 2 or 230, but according to them i didnt end up passing out until 430, after throwing up many times. then i remember waking up early in the morning literally throwing up on myself, thank goodness i drank so much water, otherwise that would have been a very messy situation. then when i finally woke up i saw dan passed out in the chair across from me, turns out he was basically watching over me practically the whole night, i found that really sweet. then i started remembering stuff and felt like a wicked asshole which was only made worse by everyone asking me if i was okay the next morning. basically to sum it all up, it was a very embarassing evening..
..needless to say, the next day wasnt much better, but at least i didnt puke. went to ians studio to sleep most of the day. i figured it was the better place to go cuz it was closer than my house..
..so, the lesson here is, well actually there are a few of them:
~ dont start a night of drinking with whiskey
~ dont drink so much to the point of puking
~ dont smoke after drinking that much even if it normally makes you feel better
~ dont go up into tree houses
~ beer pong after a lot of drinking is bad!
~ this one i learned a long time ago, but im glad i remember it: drink with friends that you trust, they got your back. |
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[Jun. 26th, 2006|10:07 pm] |
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| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | : X | ] |
..feel like im gonna boot.. |
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[Jun. 24th, 2006|10:01 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | comp room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | silencio | ] |
UPDATE:
..graduation sucked, masslively. vacation so far is alright. nothing too special, mostly just sleeping in and laying out. want to go to the beach soon, maybe get some fishing in. will be on grams bday. went to orientation. complete waste of time altogether. and they treated us like we were children, it was a complete lock down, and a pain in the ass to leave. the only good that came from it was i got to pick my classes out. i chose a wide range, intro to mass communication, astronomy, english comp w/ womens studies, us history to 1865, spanish 2, some math class, human biology, fundamentals of design, but i may not get all of them. those make up some of the core classes that i need to graduate..
..going to new york tomorrow. looking forward to that. never been, so should be fun, especially with missy and ashley..
..miss my sister. which kind of suprises me. i really want her to come home soon. i miss having a girl around the house that i can talk to or that can cover for me, or at least advert attention away from me. im so sick of my mom keeping tabs on me 24/7 calling me constantly to know my plans. treating me like im 12 rather than 18 (at least almost 18, in 35 days). nagging at me about one thing or another, not liking me having mostly guy friends, or not liking it when im hanging out with all guys. i dunno. more complaining that i was trying to avoid. time to do something else. maybe make plans, or go for a swim. i havent decided yet.. |
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[Jun. 6th, 2006|11:30 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bed land | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | once again, nothing | ] |
..had graduation practice today. waste of time, tomorrow is an awards assembly, stupid, then its the senior banquet and im seriously reconsidering it. i want to go to dance and see everyone one last time before graduation and all, but i could be doing other stuff, like a meeting for work, or band practice, or both. i dunno, im just so out of the senior mood, i just wanna graduate and get it all over with..
..i keep forgetting about stuff for end of high school/college. i hate having to remember so many things. i hate being a woman, along with not having money. went to the mall and spent like $100 that i really should not have spent on things that i really didnt need. i need to pay my mom back. i need to save my money. i need to get my oil changed. i need to work more than i have been lately. i dont need new clothes. i dont need more books. i dunno..
..obsessing more so than usual. cant get him outta my head, not liking it. how can someone have so much power over another, without even realizing it? with a glance, a smile, a hug they can change everything. an entire day gone wrong. and when you dont see them, your day feels incomplete. how can i feel so strongly for someone who doesnt feel almost anything for me and who i barely know? and he's not even my type, he's a man whore. a bachelor. a swinger if you would. but his charm is so seductive and his eyes are so captivating you forget about all of that when you look in them, and your knees melt. his touch gives you butterflies, his scent is intoxixating. i dunno. i cant take this. i could have plenty of others, but i only want one, even if he doesnt want me. life is full of shitty situations and i've gotten past those, i'll just have to try to get past this one. well, enough of a stalker entry, time for bed.. |
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[Jun. 4th, 2006|12:43 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | comp room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | ecstatic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing at the moment | ] |
..last night was f-ing crazy! and oh so much fun. went to a party in CT at this house where a band lives called If I Had Eyes, yeah it was like 2 hours away which sucked, but hey, well worth it. so yeah, went there after picking up larissa and jordan, paid for our cups and started drinking. i was on my third when an all out dance party ensued! it was like a movie, so cool! yeah, then drank a little more, got totally totally drunk, it was bad, i really should cut down. but anywho, me and larissa switched shirts at one point in the night and shes so small, i was like busting out at the top, it was kinda embarrassing, but she needed a shirt cuz she was too hott and gonna faint er something. then we went back to dancing! yeah but then the cops came, and people had to move their cars and stuff, but no one got in trouble. so i was tripping all over myself but dan and jordan and larissa and ashli were all looking out fer me, especially once all the guys were getting touchy feely. one guy was all over me, but kinda on accident cuz he was trying to help me, but he was drunk too. another asked me to make out with him but i politely declined, and then the guy i was sleeping next to (dont want to name names, but he is a friend) started spooning me and rubbing my stomach and shit, it was really weird, so i was like umm, can you not, i feel sick, er some crap like that. but i wasnt about to hold it against him, cuz he had been drinking since like 2 pm that day and at this point it was like 4 am. woke up, watched the never ending story 2. finally we left and rocked out to oldies and johnny cash in dans car. all in all a pleasant evening. alot of love in the air though..
..now im hungry and am going to go look fer food, and then take a nap. no more school, friday was the last day, and i got a 100 on my math final! pretty psyched about that. oh and i dont want to get my hopes up, but a camping trip was mentioned last night to north carolina, at the end of june/begining of july. how perfect is that though! thats exactly what i wanted to do this summer. hooray!.. |
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[Jun. 1st, 2006|10:14 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | pain | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | melancholy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | saturday - fall out boy | ] |
..so yeah, last weekend was ambers wedding, it was real fun. friday we did bridal party bowling and i nowled a 126! it was the best i have done in a while, then right after that i bowled like a 60 something, not so good. we all seperated and the girls went to aunt sues and watched father of the bride while eating pizza rolls. next day, gots our hair and makeup did, it was a whole lot o fun. took pictures of the entire day, but not one of em came out cuz my camera blows and i want a new one, but i'd rather not talk about that. fun night of dancing and frolicking across the dancefloor, food wasnt all that great and not a whole lot of people went, but hey, i got lots of wine and a sex on the beach. next day i attempted to see x3 didnt work, but got free movies tickets outta the deal and a refund. then went to dan's and drank, alot, again. i should probably cut down on that. and i have decided that gin = bad. now the thought of gatorade makes me wanna hurl. had to get up at 10 the next morning to go give a mini acceptance speech for my scholarship from the legion. that sucked. later that night saw x3, disappointment..
..this week thus far pretty much blows. last week of school, tomorrow is my last day, yet im miserable. tuesday i worked a 311 person prom, carried 16 dinners and fucked up my shoulder, and i have to work tomorrow so i hope its better by then. wednesday i went to band practice with the boys, drama ensued, now im depressed. i have decided though that i want to learn how to play bass. today was boring, im stressed and in pain, but got my calligraphy final back which im happy about because it came out awesome. now have to finish my project for daley's that i have been putting off for a couple of weeks and only have until tomorrow to do..
tata |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 25th, 2006|10:23 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | eek | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | meh | ] |
COUNTDOWNS:
ambers wedding: 2 days
monday (where i have to make an acceptance speach for a scholarship): 4 days
done w/ school until graduation: 7 days?
graduation: 14 days or so
legality (if there is such a word): 65 days
..who knows whats after that.. |
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[May. 22nd, 2006|11:23 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | computer room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | cold | ] |
| [ | music |
| | widow - as cities burn | ] |
..friday: sat around, worked on school stuff, last minute of course..
..saturday: worked fer a bit, the new plates suck, you can carry a maximum of like 9, i so far can carry 7. then went to dan's drank alot (emphasis on that last word). never really do hard alcohol..yeah, i took like 3 shots half peach tree, half tequila, also a beer and some mixed drink that dan made, it tasted like pineapple. didn't go to bed til like 5 after staying up to watch some of the sun come up, slept on dans comfy couch..
..sunday: woke up spiratically throughout the few hours of sleep i got. had the shakes, it sucked. first at 7 when jordan left, and dan moved to his chair, second at like 11, cuz of my stupid mom calling me, i wanted to punch her i was so hung over and just wanted to sleep. then finally again at 1. dan and i watched "just friends" and some stooges, then got the initiative to go to the store and get breakfast supplies. made some pancakes and hash, and took another nap. woke up at like 5, watched him play some god of war, wicked cool game. went home took a shower, went back drank a little more, while watching family guy and eating some sicilian pizza. went home, and to bed..
..monday: skipped school, slept in, worked on my calligraphy project pretty much all day except when i went out for subway, and to kels to give the kitty her eye stuff. really shoulda been working on daleys project but he wont care as long as i give it in before we leave fer good..
..thats about it, pretty fun weekend. next weekend should be too, ambers wedding is going to take up friday and saturday night though : ( but hey thats fine, i just dont wanna have to be around will, he really creeps me out, like really really, in a scary gross way. in the way that makes me not wanna go just to avoid him, but i wouldnt do that to amber, i'll just have to avoid him as much as possible and constantly surround myself with people.. |
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[May. 19th, 2006|10:31 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | kockie's room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | JEW - track #4 off of Futures | ] |
..gave blood today. went down an hour early, at 8:15 and i wasnt even taken until like 9:45. had to answer a bunch of questions, they gave me a bag of cheesenips and a bottle of water b/c i was nervous. i have a fear of needles. then they laid me down and i was looking away and this creepy old guy came over and was talking to me trying to get my mind off it, and was telling me to think of something else and being somewhere else, and i could only find myself in one place. and i'd try and think of something else, but i'm so subconsciously obsessed i cant stop thinking of this one person. which really blows..
..but anywho, it took like 10 minutes, and after it was done i tried sitting up, i was like "im fine, i dont get why everyone makes a big deal out of it"...then the room started to spin, and i had to lie back down. after a little bit a boy helped me off the bed and walked me over to the mats where people were resting, including shaver. the boy even brought my stuff over for me and got me another bag of cheesenips, another water and some oreos. i found this very sweet. it was awesome though, cuz it was like being high. screw drugs, who needs em, just give blood, its awesome, and you're helping save lives..
..then the shitty part of the day happened. shana was down there, and even though the taking of the blood didnt make me sick, the very sight of her made me want to vomit. then later on danielle was down there as i was selling papers. she said, and i quote "i fucking hate katie callahan" b/c of the article i wrote, just b/c i said the prom theme was unoriginal and the favors kinda sucked, but in a much nicer way. she took offense cuz she was on prom committe. sry, but it was true, and if she hates me for stating not only fact but opinion then let her hate me i really dont care anymore. and if she tries to crash ambers wedding i will slap her silly and give her a good ass whooping, i dont care if im in a dress. but anywho so yeah, jamie saw that i was like 2 feet away from her when she said it, and out of the corner of my eye i saw him whisper to her and point towards me and heard her say "i dont fucking care" i felt like chucking my water bottle at her head and screaming "are you fucking serious, i'm right here, and if you have something to say to me say it to my face and quit being a fucking pussy!" after the first part, but let it slide, then this, so i just left otherwise something might have happened, and i didnt want anything to start at a blood drive, so yeah. also sry fer the harsh language she just makes me into a curser. but yeah so that was my day. i need to find an opportune moment to fight her, any ideas?.. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 16th, 2006|10:29 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | kel's room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | excited | ] |
| [ | music |
| | no doubt - dont speak | ] |
..today i skipped school. i told my mom i had really bad cramps and asked if i could go in late, just b/c i was tired, and then slept until 2:15. haha..
..after that i went with kel to the vet, which we walked out on cuz they were rude and booked an appointment with another vet for later. kel left fer the cape, i brought the kitty there, it took forever. now i am bored and have been on the computer at her house fer the past like 2 hours..
..thinking now about how much i want to go to college and do sports and other things that i never did in high school, and how i cant wait to get a new start, and how much i want to get an appartment with kel and katie, and how danielle's gonna be in new hampshire for the next 4 years, hooray! but yeah back to appartment thing. it would be with kel and katie and its only a 2 person one that we'd be fitting 3 people into but it would be so awesome, only having to pay $725 a month between the three of us, and to start off we only have to pay first and last month, no security, and then electricity, and then quite possibly having paterick and dan fer neighbors. it would be awesome! they would have the 2 bedrooms, and i would have the living room area as my sleeping area and keep my things in kels room. i just cant wait to be independant and actually have to pay bills and live on my own and pick up after myself and cook for myself rather than my mom insisting on doing everything! it drives me up the wall!..
..so thats all fer now, just me being really excited. oh and if that does happen, i want to throw a house warming party, but i really shouldnt get too excited cuz then it wont happen, cuz thats how my life works.. |
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[May. 15th, 2006|03:13 pm] |
..Friday: went to prom, it was awesome, the food didnt make me sick and i danced a lot, and not only did they play swing, but also Frank Sinatra..
..Saturday: worked from 9:30 am to 12 am, that would be 14 1/2 hours. it sucked, but at the same time didnt, cuz i need the money..
..Sunday: worked again, but this time for only four hours. also got prom pics developed and are up on my myspace. went to see the boys play, but didnt actually get to see them play, which is fine, b/c i got to se ashli and be with kel and see the boys. then went to see stephy and blake, then to bed..
..Today: went to school, slept in math, worked on my finals for my arts and technologies, i love how much time we have to do them. stayed after fer the newspaper, we go to press tomorrow morning, and i got a whole pg to myself, i feel special!..
..Tomorrow: movies with kel? $5 tuesdays so why not, but "the breakup" or "american haunting"?..
..Entire weekend: sick. i think i may have a sinus infection..
..this thursday is the That 70's Show series finale, and i have to work, im a little POed.. |
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[May. 10th, 2006|02:28 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | comp room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | lazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | taking back sunday - make damn sure | ] |
..to give up, or stand my ground? that is the question..
..going to work on my project fer daleys then go tanning, then dye muh hur. prom on friday. bloop.. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 29th, 2006|10:25 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | i write sins not tragedies - panic! at the disco | ] |
..have to's:
~ get my wisdom teeth out : /
~ beat the shit out of danielle crazy
~ save money
~ see silent hill
~ get a life
~ have fun at prom, alone
~ hold myself back from beating the shit outta danielle crazy so that i can remain a student assisstant
~ put my england presentation together
~ hang out with amber more
~ play more pool
~ see "les miserables"
~ start walking
~ decide on my date fer ambers wedding
~ start reading my other book
~ get a life
~ stop attracting people who are: of minorities (not that im racist, just the ones in westfield are disgusting and annoying)/younger than/too old for me
~ and stop complaining, cuz life isnt that bad
..i should have done this on new years..
*sigh* |
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[Apr. 25th, 2006|09:18 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | groggy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | techno (haha) | ] |
..liking more than one person at a time is waaay too confusing, and not a pleasant position to be in..
..also, you can never please moms. mine yells at me for never calling her and informing her where i am and when i'll be home. then i leave her a message last night telling her where i was and that i'd be home around 11 or 11:30, i came home at 11:30 and she yells at me b/c its "too late for a school night" which makes no sense what-so-ever! the other times i came home but never called, i came home around 11 or 11:30, and she never yelled at me about the time! ahh, whatever..
..oh yes, the trip. my black and white camera wouldnt work, my digital ran out of room, and my video died, so i had to resort to disposables. which really sucked. did lots of shopping, played lots of pool. the last night we were there jackie, dave and i went to a pub to have a beer and play some pool, we waited for the old guys before us to finish, but what we hadnt realized is that if you want to play you cant pick your partner, you have to play the winner. so i didnt wanna face one of them alone so me and dave faced the two of them. they were giving us tips, and i couldnt stop laughing at the things they were saying. oh and at one point, it was like a scene from shaun of the dead, queen came on and i started singing along to it and doing really good, but then i messed up, but i got like 3 balls in in a row. but yeah that reminded me of the part in the pub where they beat the zombie bartneder up with the pool cues, along to queen. so it was pretty kick ass..
..left school early today cuz i really didnt wanna stay there, and i dont wanna go again tomorrow. wicked bad senioritis. well thats it, k bye!.. |
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[Apr. 20th, 2006|02:24 pm] |
..cannot do a very long entry. to some up my trip so far, ive seen some good stuff and some bad stuff. had some italian ice cream, it was good. had some english breakfast, it was bad. saw street performers in bath, it was really good, and funny. have been getting up at like 7 every morning, then sleeping on the bus, that was bad. have been to pubs and been drinking and playing lots of pool, thats good. changed the drinking age to 18 thats bad. they never ask for ID thats good, real good, haha..
..will enter more later along with some pics. thats all fer now. cherio.. |
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